Life & Death

"Fear of Separation"

Just lately, exactly a week ago, my dearest Xiao Gu Ma (Dad's youngest sister) passed away. I was overwhelmed with emotions because I was supposed to head down on that evening, along with my sister to the hospital to visit her. She left even before I could see her for the last time...

 Cancer--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

She was diagnosed with nose cancer many years ago.. She was the lucky few who managed to conquer cancer ;) But she was faced with the side-effects of her recovery of cancer. She couldn't consume tough food down her throat, speaking speech was affected due to her windpipe and gradually even her right side of her hearing was affected & just only recently end of last year she got a hearing aid.

Her cancer relapsed earlier on this mid-year & her health took a 180degrees turn as her throat was affected which disabled her to consume solid food... Recently 3 weeks ago, she was scheduled for the last operation as she was getting better. Who would have thought just within a span of a week, came such a huge twist.

 Lost------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

She's the closest Aunt I've had on my Dad's side & she has been one of the nicest aunt ever. The bond between us is closer because my Grandma/ relatives would say that I resemble her looks. It just pains my heart that she's no longer here & we can never ever see each other again even though we used to live just a street away. Feels worse than a break-up. My heart goes out to my uncle & my cousins. They're gradually the ones who'll be affected the most, be faced with the void they will have to endure, in their heart.

I stand by the saying of "Appreciating everything you've right now before it's gone", through her gentle gestures of delivering us with Kuehs from Subway Niche (since she works there). She used to shower gifts upon my sister & I while we were younger, even bought me my first Armani outfit I've ever had. Everything still feels so surreal... Can't believe she's out of my life. God has definitely taken one good lady that I've always looked upon, out of my life.

You'll not be forgotten, Xiao Gu Ma.